Do You Remember?

Do you remember when we first met?
And do you remember when we went to Raves?
And how I was upset, and we went to wendy's?
I was kinda nervous being around you alone without the other guys there too....
I didnt exactly know what to say, as I always would be when meeting new people.
And remember how we used to try to get online at the same time so we could talk to each other?
And how we kept missing each other... you and your silly games I tell ya. lol.
Remember how we went to the zuni's park [or whatever its called]
and you'd sit there with me when I was bored...
I really just wanted to lay down, and I wanted you to lay with me.
And on the way home, I held your hand for the first time....
I wanted to hold your hand all the way home.
I wanted you to come over everyday so I could hear your voice and see your face...

Do you remember getting butterflies? Or that feeling you may get when you just want to say so much stuff, but you get too scared to say anything because you might mess up? or that feeling when you accidently touch my hand, or that feeling you get when you know we're about to see each other, or when we try to impress each other...

You wernt my type, but I found that I really liked you anyways...
And though you've done drugs, and didnt have a great past, I was really hoping that you may wanted to be with me,...
and maybe somewhere in you, you wanted to spend the rest of your life with one person, and not go from girl to girl...
So when we were on the bus, talking about kids...
I was surprised you said anything about even having a kid with someone.

And than I didnt want to rush things,....
so I didnt want to say certain things because I was afraid it might scare you away.
So whenever you say that we're gonna be with each other forever, or talk about getting married, or having kids [in a good convo] or moving in with each other, it kinda gives me butterflies...

I fell for you more and more, and I could just see how much you cared, and liked me...
I loved getting online and seeing all the stuff you post, and it made me smile, and just want to hold you whenever I saw stuff like that.
I do still wish I could see more of that.... because they really make me smile, and feel like you do still love me, and I like seeing stuff like that, because its like a guy bringing home his wife the most beautiful flowers... sometimes it takes a little more to keep the relationship romantic, and cute....
even if it is just online, and even if it is often.

Sometimes I look at your profile, or mine [modeling one] just to re-read the conversations we had before we even met.
Yea,..... I wasnt the nicest person ever xD
But I guess I kinda thought you were just some guy trying to start a convo with me so you could get in my pants.
And than you invited me out....
And so I thought that was pretty nice.

And now all I can think about is sticking together, holding on, and keeping us alive...
spending the rest of my life with you, making you smile, and doing special things for you..
having our own place, and painting the walls, and having a job, and having a home photography job, and having the store job...
and buying furniture... and organizing the place, having it a fun place, but creative...
And fixing our room, and putting away the past, and setting up a future, putting stuff up in the room that would resemble 'us'
And having friends over, and having beanbags everywhere =]
And video taping our friends get drunk
And of course, getting you a car before we even think of getting a place lol.

And than maybe move? unless you really wanna stay here...
and than maybe save for a house? or town house? or rent a house?
and maybe sometime before we're old and in our 30s [lol] maybe have a child?
or whatever you wanna do xD

I just want you in my life, next to me, holding me in bed...
till we grow old
And we could be the old couple trying to race each other into the store =]
Because I love you