fairy tale

So I told you Im waiting for my dad to come home later on for a shoot
Later on as in, maybe in an hour or so, because I told you he wont be back till 4 or 5 because he went to santa cruz for his doctors appointment.
4 or 5...
After 4 or 5, I would [obviously] drive down to pick up alayna... and tha7:n talk over out outfits...
after that, we would [obviously] drive to the location of the photoshoot...
the shoot was at 6...
we got done at 7:25
7:30 we started driving home.
7:40 I told Alayna how I had such a great boyfriend...
So Alayna started talking about how she is living in a Fairy Tale... Thats how great her relationship is with her boyfriend...
About how he picks her up and just carries her,...
About how he is like a prince...

And than you text me,...
which you should know Im doing a shoot...
Cause I already told you...
So I told you that...
Than you insisted that no, I didnt tell you that.
And since I clearly remember telling you Im going to a shoot later on in the day...
So I simply said 'ok, whatever'
That was my part of dropping it...
Which you could have done too....
You could have done it at first, saying 'oh, ok' even if you dont remember me telling you...
But no... you had to keep pushing it.
"Why are you being all pissy with me... I didnt do anything"
One, dont ever say im being pissy.... your knowledge about me is fading faster and faster...
Two, you did do something... by not dropping it when I already dropped it.
Than you kept pushing it more, and more and more...

So I decided a good break from talking to you would work...
But than when I asked 'why dont you love me' like I do every so often...
YOU BROUGHT IT UP AGAIN!!!

"I dont understand why you get so mad and than take it out on me all the time"
And than when I said that you were 'arguing' which you were.... simply by saying 'no you didnt'
and by me droping it, and by you bring it up again....


I wish to believe you still know me....
But I see that sometimes you dont.
And if you cant fucking mature enough to fucking drop it when I've dropped it...
We're gonna have some issues.
Yea, I was arguing, but I dropped it.
When You finally dropped it, I did too....

It was kinda sad,... because Lay was talking about how great her boyfriend was...
And you were arguing with me over text, saying Im being all pissy and taking it all out on you.
I was pretty disappointed....

Earlier Ali was saying how you should be really thankful that I even trust you as much as I do, after being fucked over really hard from Donnie...
You know what... I dont think you are thankful... I dont think you even think about it... I dont think you even give it a thought about how lucky you are that I trust you...

Right now, yes, I am taking my anger out on you.
I want to talk about how your my prince... But I couldnt, cause you had to pull shit on me.
I want you to want me to call...
I want you to pay attention...
I want you to just say 'ok' when I tell you something and no argue about it.
I want to not hear shit from you like we're a horrible couple:
"i just dont see why we can never talk stuff through like a couple is supposed to do"
I didnt know there was a rule on how couples are supposed to be.
I want to be able to not cry...
I want to be able to know that you dont cry because of me.
I want to know you cry because you miss me.
I want to know you cry because you hurt me...
I want to know you love me, and take me seriously.
I want to know that your a man..
I dont want to feel like Im having a heart attack everytime you say something to hurt my feelings.
I want to know your not playing around with me...
I want to know you DO love me... and not just say it.
I want to know you DO miss me... and not just say it.
I want you to be the prince that you say you are.