change...

So I was talking to Derrick and I was telling him how I liked Basshunter and such..
and he said he never knew I was into techno... and I was for a long time...
so I told him that there was alot of things he didnt know about me....
and he told me that I didnt open up to him much...
and I said that I was a very independent person... and that I still am.
and I said something like I never really opened up because of the whole thing with my mom, and deal with that whole thing....

and he said as soon as I found out my mom got cancer.... I was a totally different person. My whole personality changed, and I became more independent, and more of a bitch [well he didnt use those words] I argued alot...

But I was so different.... and I hate the fact everyone has to know me after this change....
Im guessing something clicked in my mind.... and im not 100% sure what it was....
So im sorry that I get irritated all the time.
I guess I dont catch myself... and I just get irritated at everything....
and I hope I wont be like this for forever
so Im sorry