Her! ugh

Jared... I like your mom,... just thought I'd let you know. Sure sometimes its no fun when she doesnt let me over, or even want me over.... but I can understand that. Its rare for me to like someones parents... either they are just 'there' or I hate their guts... And I usually dont hate many parents... there are like just a few I absolutely cant stand... so most parents are just 'there' to me... but I like your parents.

I got a message from Derrick's mom... And it has to come out somehow... so I thought I'd write it to you.... idk why.

btw, Derrick is my friend, and nothing more, incase you start to think something, stop. Derrick was there when I needed him when my mom got cancer... not so much when my mom was actually passing away... which is why I ended the relationship... and also cause I was stupid and did stupid shit... But hes still a friend. Anyways...


Message from Derricks mom:
"I have read some of the posts you sent to Derrick. It sounds like you have matured nicly. How are you doing? What have you been up to? I know I said we shouldnt be friends. It was a long time ago, and my son was still hurt. But he seems fine with it now. I hope you understand, from a mom's point of view. I have a lot of spiritual people and reverands as my friends, so if you just post nice stuff, does your mature side still want to be friends? If not, I understand. I still have loving feelings for you, regardless of what I did in the past. Once I love, its very rare that I stop loving the person I have started to love. So either way girl, know you are loved by me."



According to her, I was immature from age 16-19 Because when I first met her I didnt have a job... and her son had a crush on a no body
Age 17 I was immature because I had too much feelings...
I was immature because I was 17, going to school, working, and taking care of my mom who had cancer.
When I was 18 I was immature because her son was engaged to a girl who still had too much feelings, was always in a bad mood, and was still going to school, taking care of her ill mother, and had no plans for college
At the age 19, I was immature because my mom was in the hospice and I had way too many emotions, I didnt know what to do with myself, or knew what I wanted.... so I broke up with her son. Well,... in the worst way possible. THAT was really the only immature part of me I could really possibly see.


She believes in this stupid book called 'the secret' or something like that. you believe good things will happen, and they will. Yes, that works,.... on some things.... we tried that with my mom....
'treat her like shes going to live... and she will' yea, no, didnt work. her cancer went away, and came back... there are just certain things that'll happen no matter what you do.

I lived with Derrick's mom... I dont remember where my mom was living, I dont remember if I was going to school at the time, I dont remember if I was working.
All I remember in that house, was staying in the room... taking pictures.... having dinner, and arguing because they wanted to tell me how to live my life, because I was so immature...
Which is why I moved around a whole lot after that, and I got a car, and than I moved into the house again where there was no hot water or anything...
Its all such a big blur to me.

But for her to be a spiritual person and to say Im immature because I was taking care of a mother, going to school, and having a job is just... retarded.

I sent her a message back, saying I was never immature... that I was going through a hard time taking care of my mom, waking up at 2, 3, 4 in the morning, because I always had to give her her pills or help her move in bed, or help her get up out of bed to use the restroom... And than I told her that I express through writing, and that Im thankful for everyone on my private fb that understands that, and knows thats how I work, and for everyone else who doesnt understand, or can accept me for how I am, they can add me on my public fb [which is where I was messaging her from] [cause there is just no point in not expressing shit, just so I can add her] and that I told her I am just now starting life all over again because you inspired me to [you jared, lol not her]

What is it with all these stupid adults acting so childish? and rude? Yea, its cool to be young when your old... but to be all dramatized is not. its just stupid. Spiritual my ass