soo... tired

work.....
when your work lays you off in the winter... can you go back?
what would your job be in the winter time?
you should apply for places now for winter...

gosh... I told you that ii'd think about writing letters... and you just keep pushing my buttons........
you dont like it when your parents push your buttons.... so what makes you think I like it when you push mine hm?
I dont like it... one bit

=[
its like a game for you...
if I say Im tired.... and dont feel like doing it, its like you try and see how much in camand your in, just to try and make me do it

myspace vs facebook 2

ok, off to what I was supposed to say....
why is everyone using facebook?!?!?!?!!!!!????!!!

that makes me sooooooo sad and depressed v.v
why would everyone do that? myspace came first!!! and its all pretty and such....
why do people use fb more? its like twitter....
but myspace you can make it look like how you want.... and on fb no one reads your profile like they would on myspace.... and you have music there, and you can make it look the way YOU want it to look, and everything cool like that....

[btw, aw, my cat is super tired]

booooo on fb! D:<

myspace vs facebook

really your gonna IM me on both of them?
your so cute sometimes,... I just wanna hug you so tight, but im afraid ima like break your neck.
and than you'd be dead, and it might freak me out a little....
gosh-ness, im sooooo tired.
OH dont let my cat scratch the carpet...
and I've already told you.... a million and one times that I talk to you through my email.... I WAS THE ONE WHO TOLD YOU THAT YOU CAN DO IT!!!
see, there you go again with not listening to me. ugh
You do that wwaaaayyyyy too much, it like kinda.... bugs me.

twinkle twinkle little star

You know,... I still want that twinkey? but I felt too fat eating waaay too much.
btw, when you come here, you can eat whatever you want!!!! maybe not the stuff in the little brown boxes in the freezer, but you can has my chocolate ice cream... you also know there is still your strawberry and vanilla ice cream?
and and...
you can look through all my stuff in my room... and you can idk...
you can.... NOT throw a party in my house.... or bring your dog over to scare the living hell out of my cat.....
and..... idk...
you can burn my lil pumpkin candles tho
I wanted to go see twilight....... sooo baaaddddd!!!!! =[
-sniff sniff-
and despicable me....
-sniffs even more-
and The Last Air Bender
-cries-!!! why do all these movies have to come out when im like gone?
well, despicable me comes out on the 9th....
when do I come back again?

baaabe!!

so my dad keeps saying 'we've got lots of packing in the morning, we've got lots of work to do in the morning, we've got lots of stuff to pack in the morning' [put on repeat]

anyways, I was super sad when you said that you were sad that I wouldnt cuddle with you on our last day.... that like made me super sad.... I wasnt even thinking about that. I just wanted to go to my house and be all happy thinking so I wouldnt be all sad thinking.... I felt..... horrible.....
v.v
Like, super horrible... but please note... that I will miss you, a lot.
You know, I love looking into your eyes..... they look really pretty,... and neat.. yes, neat.
and I love staring at you, than you smile out of nowhere... and that makes me all happy inside....
I <3 you soo much.

Dear Mr. Boy Toy

I'll miss you sooo much!!!
but i'll come back with something for you. maybe i'll buy you something too... maybe, if I can convince my dad to let me buy stuff. [they sell stuff in SCA events]
your letter thing is soooo cute....
I did that for derrick when I left for a month[actually it was more than that].... I'd give him clues...
He said he didnt find all of them... in my year book I ended up finding like two pictures of me that I stuffed in there.

Im sorry I wont be posting any blogs..... but maybe I'll just try to post alot for you to read.... what do you wnat? stories? feelings? current status drama? old drama?

vampires? werewolves? Humans? [oh my]
I miss you babe.... I hope my class gets out at 9.... like sooooooooo bad. I wanna see you like asap...
I still have a little packing to do.

you should let me borrow a pillow of yours... since your sleeping with one of mine... yea?


Miss ya....
btw, tell me what type of blogs you wanna read while im gone... i'll try and post like... alot

girlfriends

Im not used to my bf's best friends being girls.... even though you spend most of your time with me, it really shouldnt matter....
but I've never had a bf that goes around telling other girls that he loves them....
even if its in a sister and brotherly way.... not that you guys are sisters and brothers or even if you are...
for example, me and Juan call each other 'brother' and 'sister' all the time.... so you already know thats how we are... and once in a blue moon we'll say we love each other, but again, we usually say 'I love you little BROTHER' not just... I love you.

if you were my bf back than in california, yes,.... [like you] I would ditch you to go hang out with Damien... But thats because he has personal problems, and is a depressed person, and me and him talk about poetry, and I try and help him solve his problems....

I dont care that you went to the rave...
but when I sat in my dad's car, watching you two just talk, and than.... ok, you like didnt talk to me at ALL when you were with her except for in the room, which you decided to harass me, and embarrass me infront of her.

either there is something wrong with your friends, or there is something wrong with the people of colorado... which I think its the people of colorado...
because when I get introduced to my bf's friends in california,.... they seem to talk to me, they seem to know how to keep me in the group.... and well the people seem to know how to too!

you like didnt talk to me at ALL in the car on the way there... made me feel like.... all you wanted to do was get to the rave asap and ditch me... just not really that way but kinda

Im not jealous,... Im left out.... Im not just left out, im not used to being the third wheel around my bf...