Chicken

For say someone was hurting you.... I would say something, even just a little something, instead of sitting back and watching it happen. I mean.... seriously? Not a 'hey, your hurting her' or nothing.... Hm. whatever than.... whatever floats your boat....
or just go and say 'I'll wait...' whatever...





I noticed that that lately I have been trying to take control, well not really, I just not have let anyone control me... Which that usually means something bad....
But I mean, I believe that every once in a while the girls need to have full control,... ever seen a girl with guys shaking their ass's for her? I mean, how many music videos do you see where the guys do everything for the girl? [No, NOT memorized by the girl where they are all up in her grill]
I mean,... when does a girl get to sit down, and say 'hey, get me a beer'

Well.... usually, Im controlled... and thats perfectly fine with me, I like it that way actually, its kinda fun, but when Im the one making the decisions, that means something way wrong... that means Im pissed off to the max, where everything goes absolutely my way, or no way...

ok, ok... so its not usually me being controlled, its half and half,... well, more like I have 40% of the control, and someone else has 60% control over me.



So yea, there is something wrong with me and idk how to get myself out of this situation....
Why is everything so negative now... and I cant find a reason to stay happy.... or to be happy in general....

Im hoping that tomorrow will relax me, or at least make me happy, or where I can get everything settled


I am not happy with my life at all right now....
And I dont feel like going back to where I was in my life....


at least today is pretty outside