Twilight

RIP MOM
o1.o6.o9 And I miss her soooo much.

Happy mother's day. Make sure you do something special for you mom! Yesterday I got her this little thing that she used to collect all the time.....

I wish she could have met Jared and Ronnie. You would have gotten a kick out of Ronnie, and would have loved Jared. Also Juan too....

They all make me smile without even trying....
I wish I could show you what I've been up to. I always wish you were here to help me. You would have thought the goth shop is the coolest thing in the world. lol and I wish, yes, that I could take you out to clubs. I think it would have been fun.

I always think about you everyday. I need you, and wish you could have stayed. I wish I could have taken you to the beach,.... Colorado doesnt have one; I dont see how you could have lived here before.... Did you even like it here?

I have your cat here..... Im sure Muggle misses sleeping with you.
I hate being so stressed out and not having you here to talk to....

Sorry, I've almost become like you.... Just sitting in my room all day everyday,..... I feel like a horrible person for letting your life just slip away...
If I could, Id spend all day shopping with you, just standing there till my feet hurt,... I would take you hiking,.... I'd take you to the beach, I'd play dress up, and I'd sing karaoke with you, even if I sucked.... I'd find a place where you could pick all the flowers you wanted, and I'd go to every Filipino family gathering even if I dont understand what they are saying, and no one talked to me, I'd still go, and dress how you wanted me to.

I wish I could hear you sing one last time....
About a month ago I listened to this song over and over, because I could just imagine your voice.

Happy Mother's Day





Now..... I hate to talk about this.... That chick in twilight is a horrible actress!!!!! That bella girl. yea.
Anyways.... Twilight, the second one...... in a way, Edward would play the roll of Ronnie, and Jacob would have played the roll of Bass,.... and I would have played Bella....
But mix it a little. Because Ronnie totally looks like Jacob, and bass totally looks like a not so hot edward,...not that edward is hot.
Anyways! I broke it with ronnie I must have sat in my room and stared out the window and watched it snow.... for days, and days..... not getting up, not eating.... not talking to anyone. Months of crying,.... than Bass came and told me to forget him.... exactly like what Jacob said pretty much.... no really... It was like he read the books... "I know what he did to you.... I would never ever do that to you. I would never hurt you.... I promise. I wont let you donw. You can count on me" [seriously Bass? Did you like, read the book or something?]
And than it was like Ronnie came back, just like Edward....
And just like Jacob, Bass disappeared as well. Only I dont think he would ever come back.
It was exactly the same.... only the ending is different.....

:] Because Jared came into my life.... [speaking of jared, I just saw him]
But I hope he never disappears.... I hope we stay friends forever, I hope I can always talk to him,.... and always hold his hand. I hope he would never be a boy that I sit, and stare out of the window, doing nothing but thinking about him day after day.... alone

But I dont want any promises....

:] I wanna buy him new clothes though xD He is always asking what to wear... not that I really care, but if he doesnt know what to wear,.... than does he really like his clothes?
btw..... he smells good o.O is that not creepy to say?


Im alright with staying here in colorado just because of Jared, and my dad.... but its so boring here! There is no rush here..... There is nothing to fear here. Its all just.... boring, and the same. The only fear, is loosing myself, and loosing my friends,.... and of course the possibility of loosing Jared. Not that I want to be around a bunch of gangs,.... or a bunch of loosers who think they are vampires.... But seriously, I am stuck with a boy who thinks he can fight, and brags about it... a smart ass who thinks hes a bad ass.... And an overly kind boy with a bad past, a kind anti stealing pirate....

Thats why I cant wait till Rich and Ronnie get here..... :] They are a fun rush. But its no fun..... Rich, Ronnie, D, and Steve can go around punching each other when they loose their temper..... but of course... 'girls are not allowed to hit guys' What a bunch of loosers D<


anyways.... I think im done posting here. idk what else to say... I'd probably just go on and end up talking about stuff no one wants to hear