Its Only A Dream

Its usually when Im really hot that I get weird dreams, or nightmares....
Maybe thats why I keep getting bad dreams when Im sleeping in your bed, or when your holding me, and it gets hot after a while..... and I usually get the weirdest dreams when Im sick, and have a slight fever... I finally understand lol...

Lastnight I was sooo cold, that nothing was keeping me warm, not my blanket, not your sweater, not my scarf... Yes, I went to bed in the sweater and scarf cause I was so friggen cold.....

But this morning I woke up sweating, either from the nightmare, or from the scarf and sweater... Or maybe both....

But the dream felt so real, I didnt know what to do.

I was trying to follow you, trying to keep up, but you were walking too fast, and I wasnt used to walking on snow, melted snow, and ice... and all I could really see was the whiteness beneath me, and every once in a while, a quick glance at your face.

I could feel the pain in my heart as you were trying to explain to me that you had to leave the state in a few months, and for some odd reason, Jennifer kept coming into the conversation...
I was trying to stay right behind you but I kept slipping slightly, trying to keep my balance.....
You were trying to explain that you were just looking for a girl to mess around with till you left the state...
You were like,.... going to work for the government, you know, when they occasionally use the bad guys for their skills and knowledge... [not that you are one, but you know what I mean]

You were telling me that we were never meant to be, but you fell for me, but it wasnt going to work out, that yes, you were just using me.... and I dont know why Jennifer's name kept coming up....

and all I remember is falling in the snow and you turned around, kissed my forhead, and walked away, and I never saw you again.....






I remember waking up and taking the scarf and hoodie off, which made me feel like I was actually walking outside in the snow with a scarf on, but I knew it was just a dream.... I hope.

and than when I actually woke up woke up, my friend D called me :]
and now your texting me, so I know your still here... for now ='(